ACK what am I waiting for?

[Esuna]

It's getting harder and harder to go to work. I've been here almost a year. I feel almost afraid to quit, though. Some reasons - for one, it's stable, and there are good benefits, and all of that. Secondly, I've never worked in such a GREAT culture and atmosphere. This office really does operate as a team. I'm valued and appreciated here.

Cons - doesn't pay much; it probably never will pay much more than I'm making right now, and I'm BORED.

I was excited when I got here, because I knew I would get to learn so much about things I'd never done before. It's a complex field, and I'm still learning things. But it's now old hat to me. It's not what I want to spend all day long doing. By the way - I do this a lot. I learn how something works, and after a while, I'm completely bored with it. I love to learn, though.

The silliest thing of all? I can do 2-3 masssages and make more than I do here, and I wouldn't even be taxed as much because I could claim my expenses. I'm afraid I might not get enough business (but this seems silly to me, too). I'm not sure why I'm dragging my feet on this.

I do need to hang around for 6-8 weeks at least, because someone else will be out and I don't think it would be right to leave them hanging. I've been treated well here. How much notice is enough? My job isn't hard to me, but it would be overwhelming to a new person. A new person would need time to acclimate.

I know I to go do my own thing. I have websites to build and massages to give. I also need more time to study (tons more), since I want to go into chiropractic. Why is it so hard? What am I worried about besides disappointing some people who really appreciate me? Maybe it's because I know that working for myself will carry more risk. But I'm very tired, and when I get up in the morning, I don't look forward to spending my time in an office, no matter how great my job is (for a day job). I dread work, and only because I must find it insanely boring.

Just venting, but advice is welcome, too!

[Esuna]

Hmmm. Okay.

[Danyelle]

Maybe do massages on the side for now, build up a client base while you still have your 'steady' job and then when you're making enough on the side, quit.

[ShiningLight]

Hey Esuna,

I feel where you're coming from. I'm the same way with things. Once I feel I'm at a competent level, interests, jobs, hobbies get a little bit boring for me as well. Sounds to me like you're a very quick learner. The fact that you learn things faster than normal IS the reason why you like to constantly learn and grow.

Don't beat yourself down for that. Maybe you've gotten what you were suppose to out of that job. Maybe once you've fulfilled your purpose there, it's time for you to move on.

I do need to hang around for 6-8 weeks at least, because someone else will be out and I don't think it would be right to leave them hanging.

Realize that you don't "need" to do anything. If in fact, you do decide to stay, it is a choice that you make based on the fact that if you were in their shoes, you would appreciate somebody who stayed to help you out.

I think these two books will help you out:

The Renaissance Soul by Margaret Lobenstine
Refuse to Choose by Barbara Sher

[Kaspian]

Boredom can be a great signpost - Time to do something different? If doing massages and building websites is calling to you, listen to that call.

[Esuna]

ShiningLight:

Realize that you don't "need" to do anything. If in fact, you do decide to stay, it is a choice that you make based on the fact that if you were in their shoes, you would appreciate somebody who stayed to help you out.

That's very true. I will remember to "watch my language". I WANT to do what I feel is right. It is a choice.

I'm so glad you identify with me! I've always felt like such a flake for feeliing this way. It never really occured to me that I just pick things up fast (well, it did, but I never got the connection). I'm not lazy, and I don't dislike working. In fact I'm often here later than I should be. I'm just bored!

I will check out the books you mentioned. Thanks!