I want to create a life I love too

[Erki]

So, yeah...

[Angela]

Yayy!!!!

[Erki]

But how? I'm feeling so tired too... living an unloved life tires the heck out of me. It's getting hard to keep toiling... And I have no idea what my loved life would be like either. I have vision... Le sigh.

[andyoyo]

Originally Posted by Erki

So, yeah...

marry me

[Michelle]

I know the tired feeling :-). That's the moment before you collapse onto the bed in complete surrender, right?

Then the blessings start to find room in life.

[Erki]

Interesting that I wrote that "I have vision" in my OP - but I don't!! No action plan, no idea, nada. OK, some very little teeny weeny tiny idea mote, but that's not something that's going to pay my bills... and save for retirement, of course!!

[Erki]

It's so weird that we're living in supposedly the richest society that has ever inhabited the earth, we have such great social systems and technology enables us to reach each other in a heartbeat, practically from wherever you are located...

...and yet I worry so much about my survival.

[wren]

I was feeling very lost in that department myself recently. I found a book which has been a huge help: Wishcraft - How to Get What You Really Want by Barbara Sher. I think someone on the forums recommended this...

I found her website at Welcome to the home of Barbara Sher's WISHCRAFT! I haven't explored it because I borrowed the hard copy of the book from the library, but it looks like you might be able to read the whole book online.

It's an awesome book and gets you back in touch with all the possibilities you felt were open to you when you were a little kid!

Quote from the website:

"You'll learn how to:

Discover your strengths and skills
Turn your fears and negative feelings into positive tools
Diagram the path to your goal–and map out target dates for meeting it.
Chart your progress–day by day.
Create a support network of contacts and sources.
Use a buddy system to keep you on track.
And much, much more!"

Good luck!!