Polarity reversal from Fear to Love

[Kingston]

I had a dream tonight.

I was in a hall full of people and someone important was going to be there that everyone was really enthusiastic about. When I saw him, I recognized him as the Emperor from Star Wars, and I was the only one who seemed to see this. I did not fear him and things were allright, except that nobody recognized him. I started too tell people, but I just got blank stares.

I just decided I need to experience more of love polarity before I make a final decision. I have been fear-polarized for 9 month now, and I experienced the benefits of clarity and intuition, but now to I am held back by doubts. I polarized with fear because I had a talent for it, but now I see that that is not the best way to decide. I need more inside out experience from the opposite perspective to make an informed and final decision. I have never manifested anything substantial from Love, and I must know what it is like. I have spent weeks in doubt now, so my intentional energy is close to neutral. The only thing I have manifested the last few weeks is pages and pages of journaling… Now I need to take some action.

The theme of the dream is the “Emperor has no cloths” and hidden truth. Something I thought to be good turned out bad. But the Emperor is also the ultimate fear based role model according to Steve. This dream might be a foreshadowing of my polarity reversal today. Interestingly I only remembered this dream fragment after I decided to shift.

I will do a 9 month trial based in Love and evaluate. With experience from both sides I can make a clearer commitment to either polarity.

Feedback and advise is greatly appreciated.

Love, for the first time..

[Lauxa]

Kingston,

I have no advice about your dream, but I have a need to post some of my own recent struggles with Fear vs. Love.

I spent a few years after 9/11 heavily into conspiracy theories. I choose to believe that international bankers are doing things that are causing untold human misery.

I feel that if I polarize towards Fear, my goal would have to be to remove these people from power by any means necessary. If I polarize towards Love, I would have to forgive them absolutely. Perhaps the best choice of all would be Justice, but based on polarity, a person would be more likely to overshoot one way or the other.

I think that the Faith upon which religion is based is that Love ultimately conquers Fear. I started attending Unity church and reading A Course in Miracles to get a deeper understanding of this Faith.

I have been attempting to understand Love polarity from the inside since Steve wrote that article (which I suppose is about how long you have been working on Fear), and I feel that I am just starting to scratch the surface of what it means to do so. I have started to have more inspiration and creativity in my life and my happiness level is generally rising.

Wow, writing this in response to your post makes me wonder if I should also switch polarities. In some ways I am extremely reluctant to switch just when I am starting to get results, but I am also curious for the experience. I do wonder if Fear brings less happiness than Love. What was your experience? Did your general happiness level go up or down during your experiment?

[Kingston]

Lauxa,

Thanx for sharing. It is true that polarization increases your happiness. I think any conspiracy theory is fear based, and that is not necessarily bad, as long as you seek for truth and not excitement.

I also belief that the international banking system is corrupt, it evolved as a way of stealing from the public through inflation and from poor countries through trade barriers. The present turmoil in the financial market is sign that it is crumbling.

More generally I think the securities market is instrument of fear, and that is again not necessarily bad, because I have had great affinity with money and speculation the past 12 years. A good definition of money is liquid power.

You ask if Fear brings less happiness than Love... Allow me to explain.

I have been fear polarized my whole life, and became conscious of this through Steves writing. After I embraced it, expanded it, I manifested a clarity and activity I had never experienced. Life was guilt free and highly energized in an almost sexual way. I manifested succesful projects and the best relationship (and sex) I ever had. You become an efficient achiever, getting what you want, not what "society" wants you to want. You come in tune with power.

But my raised consciousness also made me aware of the power of love and, which I so far have only used to a very limited extent. I began to feel I was missing something, not because "they" say I "should" love, but because my increased perception saw how it worked through others. After weeks of introspection I decided I need to try Love at least 9 months.

Subjectively, so far, I was happier when I was Fear polarized, BUT this was because my energy flow was stronger then, it was my specialty. I have been with Love for only a few days now, and I am beginning to manifest happiness, but it is very different. But the differences are clear already and I begin to see the drawbacks of Fear polarization. The biggest problem is that it is a losing game that ultimately manifests suffering. You invest all your consciousness in your own ego. But the ego will die. That is what Steve means with unconditional safety. The ego is NOT safe. So while you may manifest a great life of success and pleasure (Napoleon, Alexander the Great) and even might be immortalized by poets, you do so at the cost of being cut of from the unity of everything. You will never feel the bliss of God or Brahma or Consciousness...

My present Love polarization attracted new sources of information that strengthen my belief that getting things for yourself can not make you fundamentally happy, because it is transitory. You will never be satisfied. I felt this during my darkworker days. Often the satisfaction was hardly worth the karmic debt.

This has to with that according to enligtened people the "self" is not real, and thus you live in a delusion that causes suffering. For instance, I felt first hand that the sex with my girlfriend was less gratifying than the fact that she was such a lovely person. It made me happier when I admired her instead of consuming her.. This was one of the things that made me doubt my commitment to my ego.

So why don't you try a darkworker trial to compare? Do you FEAR you might like it?

[Kingston]

Here is another contribution of insight.. I am on my talking horse and I feel Love coursing through me as I share my experience and knowledge with you, for the Highest Good of All..

Try to find examples in the world to see where the Dark Side might lead you when you try it. I will point to female examples, assuming you are a woman.

The benifits on the path of Love is the free and generous help of lightworkers like Steve, and the mystics, and the saints of all great traditions like Lao Tzu and Buddha. The benifits of the Path of Fear are the succesfull people in society and history you can follow.

Take Madonna, the singer and star, for example. I believe she was Fear polarized during her early career, playing in bands and attracting a following through her sexual power. She achieved great fame and fortune, and she has so much power that I suspect she found Peace in her achievement. Interestingly, she follows the Kabbala now, the Jewish mystic tradition, probably because she has nothing to achieve anymore in society. Her last shows critisize the pope, raising consciousness while getting richer. Fear and Love lead to the same place, but only after many years. You might not reach the level of power needed to feel Peace from power, and then you are screwed as far as Enlightenment goes.

I saw I trailer for the movie "the Devil wears Prada", about the fashion business, which is highly fear polarized. The antagonist runs a fashion magazine and is focused on power, thinness, and style. Fashion is definitely an Evil influence on the feminine mind, through an image of beauty and form that is allways moving away from you. It is competition over attention with being Thin, Rich, and Young and Hip. A woman can only comply as a Darkworker. I mean that not all female darkworkers have to do fashion, but all fashion women have to be Darkworkers on a fulltime diet while shopping. After 35 they must engage in a pathetic arms race of plastic surgury.

What would you change in your life as a darkworker? Go hunting for a rich cool boyfriend or husband? Become a scientist? Or a rich doctor? A romance novelist? A high class callgirl (if you are that pretty)? Or a bankers wife, living in luxury, rather than removing the bankers from power? Say good bey to Love then, for he will have mistresses as soon as he gets bored... But hey, you get your Prada and botox...

[Lauxa]

Actually, I am not sure what I would change at this point, as far as actions go. This post may be a bit rambling as I try to clarify it in my own head, hope you don't mind. I would not be abandoning my husband and family to pursue an affair with a more affluent man, I am sure of that...

For instance, I had the inspiration several months ago to start a flashcards site for early childhood learning. This resonates from a Love perspective because I see a chance to create something that could benefit a great deal of people. But it will also benefit me enormously because (1) I can use it with my own children (2) I can develop my skills in web-application programming, which I enjoy tremendously and which has a strong market and (3) I believe that if I can create something of value, then I can find a way to commercialize it.

Maybe if I were working from Fear, then I would want to push the commercialization earlier, whereas working from Love I am more interested in developing the content. But I can see where it leads to the same place. If I push the commercialization before the content is ready then I won't be able to attract the customers. But if I wait too long to commercialize, then I won't have the resources to continue the work.

I think the biggest thing that I might have to give up would be my church involvement. That would be hard because I am just starting to form a social network there. But maybe that wouldn't be so bad and I could find other groups to replace that.

I've gotta go, maybe can post more on this later...

[Kingston]

This is a likely scenario if you would become fear polarized, when you would commit to your own best interests. I make it sound evil to stress the point..

When you are already married, then it makes sense to exploit your current husband first... You would off course pamper him, feed his vanity, and play on his weaknesses, to get whatever you want that he can give you.. You would give to him to get more back. Get your kids under control, make them study so the can achieve a good position, which reflects good on your parenting skill.

And you would not have to let church go.. That network is very valuable, and you could just play the game to use anyone for what you want to achieve. Become so involved they HAVE to let you run things, get to be the most powerful woman in the community, without whom nothing gets done..

Satan hides where ever you least expect him Just kidding!

So definately do your online business. Remember that the key to polarizing is the emotion you feel when you work on your goals. Greed and power (or lust for webprogramming!), or joy, service and oneness. It is the energy flow that gets things done.

Its just a sketch. Try it for a week on your business, and see how much you manifest. Good luck!

PS: Note the subtle reason why it would be hard to quit church... Because of the network.. You are there to GET something, it seems.. You probably also love the people there.. A little conflict, showing that you are mixing energies.

[Kingston]

You talk about just scratching the surface of Love polarity. Maybe you could develop that first. Maybe you polarize with Love so far that you don't want to come back to neutral. But if you have little experience controling your shadow (fears), than that may slow you down later. Steve went back and forth a few times before he commited himself.

I feel wonderful as a lightworker now. I naturally and effortlessly went from hard core atheist into believing in God without a doubt. They last few weeks I understand better what it means to believe in God in an intelligent way. I prayed for an hour today, and feel very joyful.

You don't ruin your family and social life with a darkworker trial. You just use different motivational energy to get things done. Being a darkworker or lightworker is going to be far better for your family than staying neutral...