Synchronicities are happening. . .

[quickheads]

Alright, so I guees I should admit that synchronicities have always been happening. Maybe I'm just starting to recognize them. This is my first post here in the threads, but I have been an avid reader of Steve's blog for quite some time.

I am rather unhappy in my current job. Not because it's a bad job, but mainly because I'm bored and I don't feel like I'm using all of my talents. What holds me back is basically a fear of "not making it" on my own.

In order to overcome my fears, I have slowly begun trying to manifest what I want in my life, instead of concentrating on the things I don't want. I have had small successes with the intention manifestation model, but I seem to hit frequent roadblocks.

I just read on Erin's blog, that roadblocks are usually a signal from your guides that you need to change direction. However, something inside my gut is telling me that I need to buckle down and settle on just one thing. I truly feel that I deserve to be financially secure, and that the universe has infinite ways of providing that security, yet, something within me is stopping it.

It seems that whenever I start a project, I have a hard time concentrating on it for long enough to see it through to fruition. I accomplish small tasks, like home improvements, chores, etc. But when it comes to the longer term, life goals of finding financial success and contentment, I am left wondering if I'm just not patient enough, or if my current path is truly the right one.

I have been asking the universe for answers, and now I am asking you all here in the forums. How do I know if the path I am on is the right one? Am I doing enough? And when is it time to change paths?

Lately I've been seeing a lot of synchronicities in my life that deal with the subject of pride. I get the feeling that the universe is telling me something, but I'm not sure what that could mean. I don't feel like a particularly proud, or arrogant individual. (But then again would I?)

I currently work for the gov't as an IT specialist. I make pretty good money, but I feel I certainly could be more creative. I worked for several years as a multimedia producer, and would love to do more freelance work. If you'd like to see some of my work you can see my portfolio at DVDME - Post Production - Multimedia - Animation

My current love is restoring an airplane in my garage. You can learn more about that at my latest website Welcome to QuickHeads.com | Home | http://www.quickheads.com I enjoy building, flying, and talking about it online. But I'm still not sure if this could be THE path for me.

Please let me know what you all think. I will enjoy reading your responses. I'm sure lots of you have struggled with similar issues, and I'm curious how you worked through them.

Thanks for looking.
Dan Yager
aka quickheads

[hotwired]

My thoughts, based on what I've read are that you are in that place of doubt that could either turn to beautiful discontent and move you onward, or keep you treading water for many moons.

First thing that came up is resistance. Right now, sounds like you're in a place of discontent, but not sure what you think you should do, but you have a clue as you've mentioned two passions.

To keep resistance out of the picture, simply surrender, heart mind and soul to the fact that you "don't know what you're doing, you're out of sync and you need help". Meaning, you know where you DON"T want to be, just not sure where you're going. Get "jiggy" and ok with that and see hwat it brings up.

[quickheads]

Thanks Hotwire,
One thing that I forgot to mention in my previous post, was that I am extremely happy with my current relationship. I sat down and spoke with my wife last evening about my post here. Her response was very similar to yours. (Another synchronicity perhaps?)

She told me that the subject of "pride" might be misinterpreted. That in fact the universe is trying to tell me that I don't have to get it "perfect" sometimes I should do "good enough" and just let go. In addition, I need to remind myself that "this" does not neccessarily mean "that"

I do have a hard time letting go, and I often return to projects and "fuss" over them. I also have a hard time letting people do work for me that I know "I could do better."

I'm curious if anyone else felt this way too, and how they worked to overcome it. I obviously have a lot too work on, as I'm sure we all do, but if you've gotten beyond this issue, I'd love to hear back from you.

Thanks all,
Dan Yager
aka quickheads

[hotwired]

I did a search for excellence vs. perfection and it seems there's this one document out there, but searching my computer I found one from my old Men's Group. Thought it might ring an "aha".

Letting go of things sounds like alot about trust. I know it takes a purpose, or a catalyst to help me go beyond these things. Alot of consciousness! Fussing over projects, adding that "one final special touch" that does nothing but screw everything up!!

I did a leadership excercise once in my men's group where I had to create a dinner for an upcoming weekend. I was a working chef at one time and the men who were helping me had little cooking experience. I had to create this dinner and the stipulation was that my hands would remain duct taped in front of me the whole time. PHew!! See it's when you're FORCED to let go that it's the easiest. The dinner was awesome and I got enough out of the excercise where I was "hooked". Well, here it is ... excellence vs. perfection...
couldn't figure out how to fromat, but everything on left of - is excellence, to right of dash is perfection

Excellence Perfection
Fully Participates in the Process - Always focuses on results
Finds humor in life and self - Takes life very seriously
Willing to acknowledge self - Judge self harshly
Gets things done - Worries about doing everything right
Willing to tell the truth about results - Maintains perfect image
Willing to take a risk and maybe fail Plays it safe, - failure is unacceptable
Achieveable and satisfying - Not satisfied, nothing is good enough
Base decisions on present - Base decisions on the future
Accepts others - Judges and resents others
Maintains confidence - Full of doubt
Spontaneous - Very controlled
Trusting - Always skeptical
Trusts instinct - Always needs proof
Willing to be wrong - Has to be right

[quickheads]

Amazing! Definitely lots of AHA's in there for me.

I am going to print this out and hang it on the refrigerator! (I may not even reformat it!)

Thanks a bunch Hotwire, I'll work on these. I might even try duct taping my mouth shut every once in a while! I really appreciate it.

Dan Yager
aka quickheads

[quickheads]

I've been looking back through my posts to see if my perceptions have changed much. . . . and also because I'm a recovering egomaniac.

The post below from HOTWIRE still resonates with me. That initial post really helped lean a little more towards the "Excellence" side, and I am now taking life a little less seriously.

I just wanted to say that as I grow in awareness, I am drawn to different aspects of these answers. In my current state of awareness, I am most appreciative of the "Base Decisions on the Present" bit.

It's been very powerful for me to start living in the "now."

I just wanted to say thank you again Hotwire!

Warm regards,
Dan Yager
The Quickie Builders Association

[escapeplan]

What happened to the flying bug?

[hotwired]

I just realized that I spend a LOT more time on the left side of that list than the right. Time to laugh at myself a little ....