Zenn - thanks for your thoughts. I have actually written two different replies but when I tried to post them either my computer or my internet connection went haywire. (Hmm, wonder what that means.) So I am going to simply post this and try to edit it with more substance later.
Here goes. I have thought about your commets about the moniker I am using. Quite frankly I don't recall what was in my mind when I selected it. I have used other names here at different times but lost the password and no longer had access to old email accounts. So on thinking about your point it would make sense to change it. I'm wondering if that is possible.I would offer that Child of None does not necessarily have a negative connotation. I see a strength in it as a child of none is a person who is untethered or unbound to a preset determinism.
I am wondering how I What you write about being caught in the rational realm certainly rings true to me.
What I mean is your thinking seems to get so focused that you may get boxed in.
No doubt. I definitely get boxed in by my thinking, in ways that I suspect you did not even intend.
So I will set an intention to get out of my own way, to receive inspiration and assistance from the universe in whatever way it should come. Thanks for your input Zenn!