[pyrogen]

I am starting to entertain something of a paradigm shift in my thinking about LOA.


Starting to reconnect with the idea of Flow and connect less and less with conventional LOA thinking.

conventional LOA seems to often be used as follows... "I'm going to place an order to be filled and expect the cosmos to fill it, but meanwhile i am not necessarily living in accordance with things or accepting the reality of things as they are, so I may actually have my order filled or may not... But the rest of my life still sucks".

I.e., it NEEDS to somehow be combined with real growth and PD, or it doesn't work as well. This is why in a recent financial crisis I did not accept offers of loans from people... I wanted to fix the underlying problem on a more lasting basis, I saw that I was just going to need more and more of a bail out over time.

Instead, I've started to grow more toward the thinking of pointing my sails into the wind. I visualize the best and highest outcome, but let go of what that looks like, and point myself energetically in that direction. The closest to LOA would be toward major-ticket items because I have experienced in the past that when I LOA'd major ticket items, the smaller ticket items fell into line. For example - I created the possibility of taking a trip to Nepal. I did not go to Nepal, but I did end up creating a somewhat lucrative career path for myself for the time being, and had I had better PD skills and more wisdom at that time, i would have put money away since I actually was living beneath my means (in terms of cost of living).

I am not bothering with LOAing small change things anymore. They don't really lead to growth.

I have been putting a lot of effort into a partner, but I'm actually planning on letting that go; I want her to be a partner along my path, not an "end result".

My current goals are:

create a vibrant new civilization (we are all doing that, here) that will outlast my own lifetime. I realize that this sounds nutty, but you have to consider that in my own philosophy, you have to aim for something really, really lofty and possibly borderline unattainable. Furthermore, I may not see this civilization in flower in my own lifetime, so I am able to detach from "lust for results". If I were coaching others, i probably would advise them along the lines of similar thinking - pick a goal that sounds "wacko-jacko" but in which you thoroughly believe, and visualize that.

provide for my parents. This would be a big piece of worry off of my mind. Besides, if i am able to provide for my parents, obviously I'm able to provide for myself. Whereas I don't have enough motivation for my own wealth for its own sake.

Complete my Master's degree. Once again - end result, not steps. Instead of thinking of myself as being four years away from that goal, I think of myself as "having one third of a Master's degree" (taking into account my completion of lower division courses as being one third of the total required coursework, including BA and Masters') which is a very, very different way of thinking of the goal.

anyway - as you can see, this is a significant paradigm shift.

My own experience has been that smaller goals manifested more easily when i was in the process of manifesting a larger goal - sort of like the universe meeting me halfway to make the larger goal come more easily.

I am letting go of smaller goals as LOA goals - getting a job, getting a car, etc
- because these are stepping stones to my larger goals anyway. Or perhaps they are not, in some way that I cannot presently imagine. For example - I want a car presently but if I end up transferring to a school in SF, there will be no point to owning one.

There are also some goals which need to be revisualized/recontexted as "side goals" or "concurrent goals". For example - my desiring of a life partner is not an "end goal" unless I plan to marry a millionaire and be a trophy wife -as a life goal-. And I don't. I'd want an equal relationship with someone who shares my dreams, so I recontext this particular goal into something that would manifest while I am taking care of my other things. But because of the way that the universe works - I am not going to likely manifest "someone who empowers me to realize my dreams, and believes in them" unless I am already doing so myself (path of energetic least resistance).

So I do not visualize the mate as an "end goal". I visualize sharing the fruits of the end goal with the mate, though, as part of that end goal.

I am starting to think in terms of manifesting what I want to have accomplished at the end of my life - and beyond the end of my life. I have generally, in the past, only thought moment to moment or year to year, because of some thinking that I was going to die young (within the next four to ten years) which I have had my entire adult life, and because of my plan never to have children (you have to consider that when you think you are going to die in your forties, the time allotted to child rearing is a full half of your adult life).

I'm going to break out of that thinking. Some of my long-term manifesting goals will take about twenty years to accomplish, at least.