Originally Posted by Roaring Springs
OK. I know the musts and I have mastered those. I know the keys. But just how do I get at that point? I am at the point where I love myself and all that I am and who I am but I still do feel myself feeling a little needy with this trip being in the works. How do I get into the point where I don't care if I meet her or not? Tell me, Master. how do I get into the mindset of "Oh, I don't need you at all..." where I do feel like it's just an extra icing on the cake instead of a missing puzzle piece? Just how?
If your visualization is not leaving you feeling on top of the world and at peace because you are living in it, then I don't think your visualizations are working for you.
From an outsider's view, the telltale sign that nothing you are or have been doing is getting you closer to your destination is how you are obsessing over everything you are doing and every little thing that happens.
It's good to read a little incident like the one you mention as an alpha reflection and feel good, joyful with expectation about that, because it is confirmation your desire is on its way, but to then obsess over the little incident, analyze it, dissect it, impose all different kinds of meanings on it etc., I would guess, may just undo the progress. You infuse your own sense of urgency into it.
No one can take that sense of urgency out of what you are pursuing except you. We can only sit here and try to point that out time and time again.
I used reiki healing and meditation and the like to get the desperation out of me, and I listened to Abraham-Hicks (with countless free video clips on YouTube) who guide people specifically on how to attract what they want into their lives.