Yes, I could try to focus on others. I have done this at times only to feel like a hypocrite, knowing I didn't have any regard for them, but only the potential positive vibe.
Things I did when I was younger that thrilled me... well, no, they don't hold any sway. Juggling, for exampled, learned when I was 12.
No, I'm not bored. It's not like I'd rather be doing something else. If so, problem solved.
I am trying something professionally. It is exceptionally uncomfortable, and not in a good way. It may bankrupt me, and I've already been physically threatened a few times. That said, it's the first time I've had butterflies in my stomach in 25 years.
Fear, misery, dread,... whatever, at least I'm feeling something.
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