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Originally Posted by butterflyeffect  Wow, Danas your being so courageous and its all seems to be coming together!! xx |
Thanks for your encouragement!
Its been an interesting 24 hours....
I seem to attracting a lot of abundance. But unlike money and success which is good thing to have abundance of, to be attracting an abundance of men is, well, not quite what I meant mr. universe...
I'd been thinking lately that I really would like to have sex, I even went and bought condoms the other day to help "manifest" this...
I realized that the only guy who I would be willing to do that with was the guy I mentioned on 09-20-2011... because although it was clear to me he wasnt for me, he is really quite a hottie.
And last night he called that he's just by my house and 10pm and even though we'd never even touched before, one thing led to another....and *poof* it manifested.
it was fun. But it wasnt love making. He left (I kicked him out) and I felt some resistance to what I just experienced because I felt like I was no longer "pure". Like I didnt know him well enough. Even though he was really sweet and all...It just didnt feel right.
Anyway, this morning my ex (see 2) 09-20-2011) came to pick stuff up and very soon we were caressing and kissing on the couch...
. (With him it did feel like love...)
I told him that I do love him, and it was a very cool few hours we spent together. Very loving. But still he is not interested in a relationship with anyone and Im not interested in a relationship with him.
So within less than 12 hours Id been somewhat intimate with 2 different guys...
But the great thing about life, (especially if you believe in subjective reality in a city where its not likely to bump into ppl unintentionally), is that you can just say *next* and move on.
Im not going to linger on what happened...
This reality that unfolded is not what I chose. so I press the next button.
I chose a real relationship with one person instead of many semi relationships.
Yes I fall, I make mistakes, but Im amazed how little it has affected me. None of these guys are for me (they are both 8 years younger and are not ready for anything serious). I fell into this because I became impatient. It was fun but not amazing. Next time Im intimate with someone I chose for it to be with someone that there is a real chance, an opening, for a relationship with, and that it will be what I'll desire...
Anyway- straight after all that I met someone I was introduced to on the career front. A huge supporter of my line of work. He invited me to his beautiful home and what I thought would be a 15 min meeting turned into an intriguing 4 hour visit.
Him and his wife in their beautiful home, fascinated about what I do, raised my vibration and made it so easy to turn to a new page.