I asked the universe a simple question:
Whats blocking me? (I wrote it down)
So the universe answered straight away:
"I'll show you"
And boy did it show me!
Huge issues manifested right before me, while I was trying to be happy go lucky.
Huge because they brought me to so much tears!
Basically I realized that I still have a victim mentality
It doesnt show up with friends so much, thats why its hard to reveal these deep patterns. But with certain family members.... Oh boy!
I found myself repeating the patterns with my mom as I have been for 25 years now. And it got me to the same place- Nowhere! in other words I caused pain to everyone including myself. We all lose.
So after a lot of inner work after the chaos started I managed to turn it into a win/win solution!
I hope...
After that I decided to now really let go of my victim mentality once and for good.
I took myself to my favorite restaurant and celebrated with a 3 course meal.
Ive never done that before! Me and my notebook at a candlelit dinner....
Yes, I welcome a new consciousness into my life. I am never alone. I have myself.
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