Thank you thank you.
Interesting as Hamlet has been in my thoughts as I have been going through this process. I recalled that as a young student Hamlet connected with me. I completely tuned into the "melancholy" Dane and recognized that quality in myself.
That melancholia is not/ was not who I am/was but is a mantle that I took on. (and have subsequently, unwittingly suppressed) and not yet shaken off. [ I intend to loose it from my shoulders and leave it behind.]
The irony of that phrase coming from the literature that I strongly connect with melancholy is speaking loudly to me.
I see my current bout with acute anxiety as a step in the process toward developing I/M. I was unaware of my barriers and the universe has made it abundantly clear.
Now I must address this state that I had suppressed. No real progress until this is taken care of. And marvelously I am receiving direction here on this forum about how to move forward: recognize it, acknowledge it, perhaps even intensify it.
I dread this process but I long for the results.
Courage - feeling fear and doing it anyway.