Hugs, if you will have them.
My advice on this topic is to not listen to anyone who lectures you on how rape victims react, or should react, or (for <3<3<3<3s sake!) on how rape victims bring it onto themselves. Whatever you are feeling, whatever you are doing, is exactly how you should feel, and is completely legitimate.
We all react in different ways, and we all heal in different, very intimate ways too. Some of us find it empowering to call ourselves survivors as a symbol of their strength, others are empowered by the recognition that it was indeed a crime, with a criminal and a victim. Some of us will sleep around, some of us won't, and some of us will choose either without it having to do anything with the rape.
You're not alone.