Bonadea's "When things get too exciting" thread has been on my mind for a couple of days because its essence applies to me.
As I began this work recently, I have been directed and redierected into the work I need to do to be unattached and grateful. I was ready and excited and looking forward to a steady progress and forward movement after many years of stagnation and living in a kind of paralysis out of sublimated fear and overwhelming internalized critical voices.
But I have hit a kind of wall. And this calls to mind Bonadea's thread title. Doing this work has conjured up all the ghosts of past emotional baggage, it has awakened it from the dead, stirrred it up and the miserable pain associated with it.
It is precisely this pain which sent me underground in the first place. Now I must find a way to persevere, keep beleving and make that shift from the pain and fear that it triggers and fear that I will be stuck in this pain yet again. I have to persevere to get to that place of "feeling" that I have already transcended it and gotten to where I intend to be.
I could use some encouragement or words of wisdom. This place is flowing with words of wisdom. I open my heart to receiving some for me. Thanks.
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