Seeker5, I was thinking the same thing... the suicide is as much a part of the play as other types of death.
I attempted suicide once and I learned that I'd just have to come back here anyway and learn the lessons I was trying to avoid (and didn't even know I was trying to avoid). So why not stick around? It did give me a certain kind of freedom - I mean, if I'm contemplating DEATH, then how bad could failure be?
May as well go for broke, right?
~ peace ~