Thanks for this one. I've never gotten as far as the planning stages with regard to suicide, but the thought of it does cross my mind occasionally. But usually when I get to the point of having those thoughts, it's when I stop believing the spiritual forces have my best interests at heart and start to think that my life is just a rude cosmic prank. When I get to that point, I'm looking for a way to curtail the abuse. If I can continue to sustain the general belief that there really is a positive purpose for everything that seemingly goes wrong, then the thoughts don't even cross my mind. I'm okay with things going "wrong" for a good reason. I'm not so okay with just being made into a fool.
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