[danas]

I feel a lot of excitement on the career front. Ive been connecting and doors are opening. Doors that were shut when I last knocked...

I have been intending so hard lately for a break though and it seems like Im entering new terrain. Even just the people I hang out with. Last night I went to dinner with 20 people. (totally by chance ended up there) and I think I was the only one without a wikipedia entry.
Being around the world's top people in my field is exciting. It all started because besides the fact that I do a lot, Ive been going out (often alone) and speaking to people. Thats what makes this city (NYC) so exciting. You never know who you're mingling with...
Ive had fear of success and I think Im getting over it. Im more confident, not afraid to speak my opinion and speak up for what I do.

Its interesting that some growth seems to be happening in my career. despite the fact that Ive been making no work for 2 months now. besides thinking & reading and meeting people. Ive totally chilled out in this area (after working hard for months) So sometimes when you totally let go, and stop "doing" things start falling into place.
Besides that one of the guys yesterday called me over to tell me that Im hot and he'd totally "do" me. Which, lets admit, is always nice to hear (although it put me off him completely). Like I wrote yesterday, not filling the empty with any temporary pleasures this week. Going cold turkey is not so easy, but possible.