Do you have any family? I'm very independant and the last thing I want to do is go back to live my parents. But you sound as if you need some support and people that care about you to get back on track. My first suggestion would be to contact your closest reletives and let them know your situation. I don't know how close or caring your family is, but I believe times like this is when you need them the most.
If you can survive on your own that's great, but maybe staying a few days with people who love you can turn things around. I'm not the lovey lovey type, but if you're that bad it really helps. At least they can help you come up with some solutions, as it's hard to offer specifics without knowing you, you know?
But stay positive, maybe do some law of attraction work, and do things that make you happy. I know it's really hard when you're depressed, but things always seem to work out. I find doing something nice or watching children be happy creates such a great feeling for me. Find what makes you happy and focus on that.
That's about the best advice I have without knowing you etc. It's all general stuff, so it may not be the best, but I still wish you the best.
