Manifestation goes both ways as we know...
Yesterday I became obsessed with 9/11. I saw so much 9/11 footage on youtube. for hours. I dont know why. I just was feeling so devastated from it all since I live in NY now, and love this city so much
I fell asleep watching a documentary, hearing those planes crash again and again in my half awake state.
I got up and went to my computer. unplugged a hard disc and replugged it. And it sparked. *boom*. gone. no more HD.
I knew this was a manifestation.
My mind was on explosions and wreckage and thats what I manifested.
Today I gave it in to retrieve the data.
I intend for them to retrieve all my documents fully functioning. Amen.
The interesting thing is I told this to a friend and she was like- why are you so calm?! You sound way too happy for me to believe you...
And I realized that something similar happened 2 months ago and not only was I not calm I was completely panicking, crying.
It all turned out OK in the end but I was hysterical until it was OK.
I guess I really have found some kind of inner peace.... Wow.
After giving my hard disk to be fixed I went home.
Then cleaning lady came, she wasnt here for 2 weeks. First thing she said to me was- "You changed!"
"Why, how?" I asked.
She said "Are you in love?"
I said "no"
"you look like your in love, you look calm and happy"
....
hmm...It made me realize that it could happen. It can happen that Ill be in love and happy...That it could happen just as life is right now.
Im going to meditate on that...
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