I'm going to go out on a limb here and suggest that you may not be depressed, but you certainly don't sound inspired. Not having any interests of your own, no passion, no drive, may be the problem.
Truly, you're young. Figuring out what you like, what drives and fulfills you is what you're supposed to be doing at this time in life. You may not have figured out what you love, but you have figured out some of the things you don't and that's a start. What could really serve you is exposing yourself to new things in search of that which ignites a spark in you.
I don't know if you'd get into it, but I like to suggest Viktor Frankl's "Man's Search for Meaning". Or just try searching for essays or discussions about Frankl's writing. Frankl very eloquently points out that we all need a purpose, a driving passion in order to create a meaningful life.
The catch is that no one can do it for you. You have to do this for yourself. Try to do something new today. Go somewhere you've never been, try a new activity, or learn something new. If you embrace this sort of activity every day, you will find something that you can call your own. And if it takes some time, so be it. You're learning the whole way.
Believe that you deserve and have the power to create a wonderful life for yourself and it will happen.
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