[cbreeze]

Aspiring, gawd, can I relate. I spent the whole week right where I am, in bed on net seaching for uplifting words that made sense, but the pain in my stomach from anger and hurt was there 24/7 and if it weren't for xanax... i don't eat, don't go out, I'm stuck in this pain of betrayal and death of a loved one I trusted/wanted to spend my life with/moved in with/married and dumped. As furious as I am at myself for being taken in such a way, I'd give anything to hear his voice. I see it as LOA, because when I met him I was going through major insecurities, loss, turmoil and lied to myself about a lot and VOILA! I attracted the same vibration. Now, I have released him, and gotten over fantasies of revenge and even suing him for all the money I put into "us". He did say that he was selfish and had a sense of entitlement but I was in lust/love, who cared? But now, the anger and lonliness has made me so sick that it's no longe worth it. I know I'll never get closure nor an explanation as to why, but, I'm sure there was another. I'm really sorry for what you're going through and know that in time, and other distractions, you'll heal. Get better... IMT's