My dark night of the soul began at the end of 2003 and things have only just now come into proper perspective for me and the nightmare has at last ended. Took a while....
So what's happened?
I walked away from a major corporate career and a big fat paycheck
I walked away from an engagement
I walked away from my home of 10 years
I tried my hand at self-employment
I tried my hand at part-time employment
I tried my hand at living in 3 different states
I tried my hand at living on a wish and a prayer
I tried my hand at being satisfied with the cards life dealt me
None of them worked.
And I've FINALLY given myself permission to no-excuses, no more bs just go for what I actually want and know what's within me. And yes I'm happy to say this is a one way street, there just isn't anyway at all I could ever go back to living in the dark as I was before.
It's all very amusing and shocking to my family who are still living as society has taught them to do so. They do not understand why I am so happy without a career, a home, a mortgage, a certain level of savings. I do not intend to live this way forever but I do intend to make conscious creating my new career and am pre-paving my future with my manifesting right now.
I've never felt so free.