There are two trains of thought here. First of all, I'd be curious as to how your parents raised you with this "gift". Were they encouraging, discouraging, or just indifferent to the whole thing? As a parent I would not see my child go through the same grade 4 times in a row. I would find other options and maybe move if I had to.
As a kid, of course you wanted to fit in. I.Q. is usually not correlated with maturity level (wisdom level). I think a common mistake by parents and the school system in general is to assume that maturity level equals IQ level. Prodigies can be thrown in adult situations they are not equipped to deal with. This reminds me of a 14 year old girl that started going to college and stayed at a co-ed dorm room. Some football thugs talked her into having sex with them. She should have never been in that situation. However, she should have been learning at the college level.
Your teachers were probably jealous as hell at you that is why they didn't let you be you. I am assuming you went to a public school (no surprise there). You were given a gift that others did not embrace. However, you are an adult now and you must live your life making your own decisions. You owe it to the World to make the most of your gift as possible. We all owe it to the World to do the very best we can to be productive.
Here is what I would do. Get out a piece of paper and decide what field or fields you want to go into. Once you have decided on the specialized field then start a game plan on how you want to approach your career of choice. I think once you crystallize what you want to do with your life, this other stuff that has been bothering you will start to go away.
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