You will move on when you're ready to, but for now here's what I have learned. To preface, I learned this all the HARD WAY (it's how I learn everything) and have been exactly where you are. Don't convince yourself that you should try to "not need" love. Everyone needs love and it's a basic human component.
First, I would say- learn to value yourself and believe that you are worthy of love. Real love... the kind that includes compassion and respect. Once you can truly appreciate your value and the idea that you deserve to be loved like everyone else, then you can create some boundaries for yourself about what is acceptable and what is not. For instance, maybe it's acceptable for her to not text you every time you send her a message, but maybe blowing you off and standing you up on a consistent basis is not.
Once you have some boundaries set, then follow them. No matter who it is or how much you love them or think you need them... if they can't respect you on the level you feel you deserve, then move on. DON'T SETTLE!!!! Don't settle for "almost" or "sort of". In the end you're preventing opportunities for better things to come your way. If she doesn't love you the way you feel you deserve to be loved (and in my opinion she doesn't) then walk away. Yes, it make totally suck for a while and you may be lonely, but when you close that door in your heart to her, it will allow other doors to open (yes I know it's cliche) and you would be amazed at what might happen for you.
That is my best advice. If you allow her to treat you like that, then you're telling her that it's ok- that she doesn't have to respect you. Best of luck. Be strong, because I am absolutely sure that on the other side of this computer you are a compassionate, caring, trusting person who deserves all the love and respect that you're seeking.
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