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Originally Posted by skinnyninja  I sometimes rationalized my drug use as a spiritual quest. It wasn't. Getting high was a shortcut that merely hinted at something greater. It was a false promise, because there was never going to be any spiritual growth. Just a slack-jawed stoner who thought they were really connecting to something.
The main thing that kept me from getting clean for so long was that I didn't think I would ever have any fun again. I didn't think that life would be worth living without drugs and booze. I went to some NA meetings and people told me that my life would get better and I would have fun again. I did not believe them.
Understand that I truly did not believe I would ever be happy if I got clean. I really didn't think it was possible. |
This is the view coming from somebody who hit his own bottom (at different depth for each individual),and most importantly,realised the truth about doing drugs in general,and about doing drugs with the mistaken idea of a search for the true spiritual experience.
skinnyninja,It's good to have this true views here,people are often misled.