I am sorry I can't be of help because I am an occasional smoker, but were you unintentionally smoking wet? Either way I think maybe your body (or something else if you want to frame it that way) may be trying to tell you something.
I know that the two weeks my boyfriend went without smoking when he was trying to get into the Army were two great weeks. He actually said life was easier, though he had always thought he wouldn't be able to hang without Mary Jane. He was more pleasant to be around. And the way you describe yourself in this post, you could almost be him at certian times.
I know you can handle clean life. I am not sure you would be happier if you were sober, but there is one way to find out. Give it a good try. You can always go back, but I think it would be good for you to feel it rather than trying to hypothesize what it might be like. You may be surprised.
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