I am also in a similar place. It is easy to fall into the trap of "taking whatever you can get", and not opening yourself up to new possiblities. That someone could really love you and treat you kindly, unlike your fiancee. Maybe part of this, is that you don't respect yourself as much as you should? All I know, is that you deserve love. I truly you hope you find someone who can give you the love you need and more. Persist, and it'll all work out.
