hmmm...
been thinking... I go through all of this mental anguish because i want someone to love me... so really, the root of my problem is me...
I WANT someone to love me.
Can i change that?...
What I really wish i could do is NOT want someone to love me.
I want to be content without anybody's love. If i can do that, then I wont have to feel this depression/anger all the time. I wont have any reason to.
I have no lover, but i want one... therefore I get depressed and angry.
If i have no lover, but i DONT want one... then i will have nothing to be depressed and angry about.
I need to work on this, please help if you have any advice on how i can accomplish this.
This desire for love is a crippling weekness, and i must find a way to eliminate it from my being.
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