[ABdude]

Hi everybody long time lurker, first time poster here.

I have had a long battle in dealing with certain frustrations and negative emotions. Most of the time I can keep my cool and deal with the situation rationally. However once the situation is dealt with, the emotions I feel are not and they sit inside my psyche, festering like a cancer, until one small thought or instance causes me an almost emotional meltdown. As with expressing any negative emotion, it is based on perception of reality and during this brief but very intense moment I seem to gain an ability to vastly jump to the wrong conclusions. In essence, I feel almost every negative emotion since my last outburst, multiplied by ten in intensity. It makes for a very draining experience and often resets my self esteem and confidence to almost zero.

The reasons why I burst out are often silly. For instance, I lost it today when I found out that on facebook, my best friends have a lot more friends added than I have! Can you believe how stupid it feels to type something like that?

The good news is that eventually everything does reset, I recover anything destroyed and it quickly becomes a memory. The bad news is that it is only a matter of time before the self destructive cycle begins. If anyone has any insight on how I can break this extremely destructive cycle please let me know.