Without going into a lot of sticky details, stuff has been going on in my reality that points me to continually consider the nature of reality AND think about how and why my reality manifests as it does. Lately, the focus has been on money and my own attitudes toward it. I have seen that I have always had a "lack mentality", and thus, that's what has manifested in my life: lack (only when it comes to money; I have abundance in most other areas of my life).
This thread has been part of the clarity of focus that is developing, so I'm grateful for that.
I also realised today, quite clearly, that spending money makes me uncomfortable and nervous, mostly because.... I expect to run out of it, I expect to have "not enough", I expect to be caught short, and so on. And that's what happens. I FEAR running out of money, and, because fear is energy, because fear is focus, that's what happens. It's definitely fear. I can feel it, coursing through my chest when I spend "too much money" (even on things I can justifiably say I "need").
So, now that I've identified it, I'm getting rid of it. I know this is doable because I've released all manner of fear about all kinds of things. I can certainly do this. And then, I suppose, I'll post and share what I've learned and how I did it (if I can articulate it
).
Anyone who cares to add their positive intentions to my ridding myself of this fear, please accept my sincere thanks and gratitude. I WILL do this, and I will do this NOW. (Thanks for reading. Writing it down gives it some sort of substance, at least for me.)