Congratulations on both, your wise decision to move out and your ability to get help when you need it.
You're deserving of positive feedback and you need to find yourself the right people for it. Don't dwell over your problems. Take distance from them and use them as a good reason to seek out motivational material that helps you maintain a stable mind. Perhaps you can find some relief in learning meditation.
Please listen to this call as it gives very good guidance and perhaps it can motivate you to focus more on your goals rather than on our problems.
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