My experience is leading me up to the point that I am a Creator - all-loving, all-knowing, and all-powerful. This is a reality I have transformed into to experience what I need from The Truth. Love is the path back to God. When I am ready to step into power and live from a Creator's perspective is when my life will change dramatically. I am a Creator co-creating with nature, Gaia, my brothers and sisters, angels, so forth. Everything I have transformed from the Truth to fit my reality... It is all my responsibility. They just ARE...
My fear of rejection is diminishing because I am realizing how much power I actually have. If a girl bitches on me, it is my responsibility to determine how I take it. I am simply an observer brimming with love. I can view the bitching as "it just is" and wait patiently for her when she is ready to do whatever.
I have received many epiphanies. They are all leading me up to start in the foot step of our Creator. I have so much power that I have yet to realize. I am now asking God to help me with everything, and to ultimately give me the life that is best for me for God knows what I need the most, hence it is why he wants me to have a particular life.
Yea, my perspective on life is changing dramatically. It is a slow transformation, but it is getting there none the less. Oh to simply be means to be God - be Creator. I am noticing this unshakable peace within me. No matter how "bad" or "good" a situation gets, I am always at peace. Meditation is helping me incredibly to be this observer.
lol, I feel I will be ready soon to step into the Creator's shoes and manifest whatever God wants to give me. What I know for certain is it will be an abundant, exciting, joyful life since God wants me to be happy. God wants to manifest a girl into my life? So be it. God wants to manifest me into some kind of master spiritualist? So be it. God wants me to be raped, get AIDS, whatever? So be it. I realize I have no control over what my fate actually is. I may as well roll with it and enjoy the experiences from the Creator's perspective.