I thought about it one time 7 or 8 years ago, but when i was going to do it i was picked up a thought - What the hell i do
why now, why
I put a side that stupid idea. And i've never returned to it. Simple, i could do it in any time and this fact kept me out to do it. Look around, i'm sure many people have a worse life than you but they try to be happy anyway. Just put aside that idea for now, mate.