Because i don't believe in god, higher power, nor my self - i'm miserably overwhelmed and feeling life is way overrated, for, I'm sick of just existing. I take full responsibility as I know I've created all this due to lack of self love and used to low energy I carry without/within and attract more negative experiences and ppl. Father took his life after losing my mother, fired from accounting job, used 401k for clinic for depression, daughter going to school in another country, going through a divorce, i stay inside for days and trying to figure out where to move as there is nothing here for me anymore. Life has been a horror story and I'm convinced I was hitler in another life. No more heart nor spirit and tired of being so sad and mad. Reading this forum really lifts me up and the advice you all share is golden. Can you suggest how to suddenly believe when you don't?