Originally Posted by Ghost Of
I consider it, but it would destroy my mother... I can only imagine her reaction if she would find me dead. WHY can I not take my own life if I want to??
Is this something I can talk to her about without freaking the hell out of her?
I think when a mother knows that their child wants to kill themselves some sort of biological panic sets in.
You need to fight what's draining you, even if it means making needlessly drastic changes to make you feel more alive.
I'm sorry to hear you feel this way, I felt that way for a long time, you don't need too, so don't give up.
Examine the root of the problem and kick it's ass.