Originally Posted by Ghost Of
I consider it, but it would destroy my mother... I can only imagine her reaction if she would find me dead. WHY can I not take my own life if I want to??
Is this something I can talk to her about without freaking the hell out of her?
That's really hard to say: mothers are different.
None of us here know your individual situation and most people on the internet aren't trained counselors, so it can be hard for people to give good advice. Whether talking to family members is a good idea or not really depends on a lot of individual circumstances, so I'd really recommend talking to a professional. Or at the very least, you can call a hotline like this: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline - With Help Comes Hope