[XeutonMojukai]

First of all, I'm channeling a lot of love out to you.

Second, make sure you accept it and savor it.

Third, I know how you feel, and you need to retreat into yourself as long as you're in the military.

Fourth, you are the one who is making all this pain, and that's a hard thing to realize, I know. But just try making some pleasure for yourself... Remind yourself just how incredible of a woman you really deserve. Think of your absolute ideal woman, channel your higher self into this woman in your mind, and enjoy the ride...

I've done this meditation before, which is known as awakening your Divine Lover.

She doesn't need to be humanoid if you don't want her to be. She can have talents that are impossible in real life.

The thing is, as far as your higher self is concerned, this is real, and she isn't wasting time nursing you back to emotional health.

This is a separate entity, and with enough practice, you will physically feel her touch, and sense her smells, sounds, and all that stuff.

Have fun! Try to do this in your off time, especially if you have no friends. If you have a chance to talk to people, definitely do that, but take care of yourself, and don't masturbate, because then all that positive energy will go away.

~ David