Fascinoma, how about putting out an intention to find the answers you're looking for? Visualizing and feeling what it will feel like for you to have these answers and this clarity? Still, focusing on what you want to accomplish in the end should be enough too, since the "how" is not as important as the "what". You could look at having these answers as the "how". But I understand that the lack of answers and clarity can be really disturbing, so my suggestion is: intend for the answers and clarity to come.
I'm in a somewhat similar path here and intending for answers and clarity has helped a whole lot!
Furthermore, if you intuitively feel that art is your right path, maybe you should start pursuing that.