Dear Xuan,
To go into all the details is too much here, I offer coaching on this type of thing outside of forums etc. I dont know if you can contact me offlist.
What I will say
Words are so cheap, unless someone is prepared to stand by them and your man isn't.
You open to a trustable man, a man that has the ability to be deep, trustable, present and integrious. He isn't. You open to God.
You dont open to a smuck who pretends to be a deep, present man.
You must have both 1st and 2nd stage needs met before playing in 3rd stage - they are like concentric circles rather than steps above each other.
You feel find more about this work at
BlueTruth - The Work of David Deida :: Main Page
Liana