You guys are the best!! And in a couple of years there WILL be an update that will say I GOT INTO MED SCHOOL. I suck at standardized test bad, probably at tests in general. Well, not like tests for classes, I do pretty well in those, but tests that you have to pass in order to do something (like the driving test) I failed that one the first time. Hit one of those orange things they set up for parking. When I took the college board (that is a test we take here in Puerto Rico which is pretty much like the SAT) the first time, the first part I panicked and marked all the answers in the booklet but not in the answer sheet and I didn't have time to fill it completely so I just took that part again and did very well. I definitely have test anxiety, and when its time to take the stupid MCAT again I will look into some anti anxiety meds not just for the day of the test but for like a week or two before. Also to make sure I dont get groggy cause that would suck. I feel like I have never like hard core studied for it. Maybe because I think that Im going to get a crappy score and I can't concentrate. I took the Princeton Review and it helped some, but even though I know most of the concepts the application of them is what gives me a hard time. Plus I've never done allll the practice tests available, I just get soo anxious that I cant get through them.
This has been a hard week because even though Im happy that I graduated and will now go on to get a job, most of the people I did my Master's with used it as a trampoline for either Med or Pharm School and most of them got in and are all excited for it, and I am excited for them, but that self destructive part of me feels a little bit like a failure. I didn't apply this year, with the last score I got I could have maybe gotten it one of the private, more expensive schools but I knew I had to work so I didn't want to get accepted and then say no, so Im giving it time. I guess I'm better, and I do know that waiting a little bit is the right choice. MCAT scores last 3 years so by the time I apply probably those two awful first times, will be history, if not on paper on my mind. I am very happy that all of you did well on your tests, and for those who didn't your time will come. By the way, I love that Rocky quote LOL.
I guess it will be a little bit liberating to NOT think about Medical School for a while, even though its always on the back of my mind. Working in the health field will also give me experience which will be beneficial for me on interviews.
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