hi all of you.thanks a ton for your wonderful advices.
i cannot say that i am angry enough to punch a bag.i am more upset at myself.argueing with friends has never been my cup of tea.for so many years,i have had a wonderful relation with my other friends without a single arguement.and now,i put myself down by doing this.i guess i knew anger does no good to me.more so because,i have really been very honest about myself with this friend which i haven't been with the others.somehow it led to building up high expectations from this friend to understand me more.i guess this could be the root cause of my problem because i kept insisting that he should understand better.
like you all know,i have been feeling let down by my other friends,who are just too busy to keep in touch.and now,this arguement did no good to my already low emotional status.i am finding it difficult to accept that i did something like this.which started off as a silly arguement,went on to become a serious issue.and now i need to definately do something about it.
and i know,my friend definately wants me to get rid of this negativity for my own good.i don't want to hurt him anymore.i need to forgive myself in the first place and accept that i have done a mistake.been trying my best.have been studying to keep myself busy.there was no progress for 2 weeks.it just kept building up.today,i feel a little better.tried my best not to think negative.let's see day 2.how it goes.
thanks once again.will keep you posted about my progress.hope to get some more wonderful advices from all of you.have a good day.
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