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Originally Posted by oharrell

Oh man...memories, my first love was deep longing, obssession, and pain. It was kind of an admiring from afar at first. Then my best friend (when youre young all your friends are best friends...) told all of my other best friends and by the end of the week, the entire 6, 5 (which I was apart of), 4 and 3 grade knew of it. Including him. We were both fairly well-known in the school before hand, which didnt help.

I was extremely nervous around people back then and what other people thought of me (or what I imagined them thinking) was a serious burden. I sought to repair the damage and began telling everyone I didnt like him (I only said it once when he was around, he made the strangest face, of course now I know what it was for) At first no one bought it-but I stayed persistant (unforunately) and by the end it all quieted down and the only people who remained unconvinced were the kids in our own class.

But by the end of the year everyone forgot about it, or at least I thought everyone did. On the last day of school his best friend asked me when we were alone if I liked my FL. I heard Yes scream in my head but I said no. He was like "Oh..." Summer passed painfully, then sixth grade went by.

I moved away for 2 years, forgetting it all eventually. But then my parents decided to move back unexpectedly and I saw most of the people from the old school-but not him, I found out he moved out of state.

My best friend from back then who used to be his neighbor told me one insignifigant day, in a really off-hand way. "Guess what. Last year before he moved guess what he told me." "what." I thought she was going to say something stupid. "He said he loved you." I thought she was joking, I mean LOVE? that's an awefully strong word for a 12 yr old. But the same guy who asked me if I liked the guy back in 5th grade said it was true. It's weird how much those words hurt after all that time away. I sank low after that.

But that was 2 something years ago, and Im much better now.

Moral of the story: Dont let your peers get the best of you, and dont deny how you feel. Life's too short for it.

That is a very good advice thanks for sharing