Originally Posted by elucidate
I definitely have the will to endure
My issue is with follow through...consistency as you say.
I've tried the Foci and just like everything else, I try it a few times and move onto something else and forget about it. This goes for herbal remedies, Yoga, video games, even paintings and projects. I'll start and then get bored or just not persist.
Bit of a contradiction to be able to endure so much and then on the other hand try something, see it's potential to help me, and still flake?
It makes perfect sense. It's self-preservation on the part of ego. Consistency will be the death of it so it uses endurance as a mark of pride and uses distraction to prevent you from digging deep enough to root your confidence in deeper soil.
That's why endurance is so crucial-consistency will no doubt bring every latent struggle to the surface. A distracted mind is never that way just because, there's always something it's intent on avoiding. I can't speak for lightworking but in darkworking that is the first thing we must confront.