I definintely know whats it like to not have any friends unfortunately... I'll be 28 next month, and every day that goes by I feel more and more alone... Even though I do have a girlfriend for over 2 years, I fear she might leave me one day since she knows my situation... My 'friends' from the past were low lives, treated me like garbage, put me in dangerous positions, etc.. Everything a REAL friend wouldn't and shouldn't do.. The older I became, the more I knew less and less people.. Honestly if it wasn't for my girl and my dog I wouldn't even be here.. I've been through so much negativity in my life, its taken an impact on me big time. I'm so cynical its unbelievable.. I don't like to be like this either but its all I've encountered in my life.. Even though I myself have had to distance myself from old friends because of the way they were I still felt sad and lonely that I was FORCED to make those decisions.. i don't get it.. I consider myself to be pretty easy going, laid back, funny, ya know, a decent guy.. I help alot of people, old and young, I work with developmentally/physically/mentally disabled adults, etc.. So I feel like I give so much to others that I wonder when will I be given something in return?? And I don't ask for much.. But the bad outweighs the good in my life like you wouldn't believe and I'm just tired of it..
