for those of you that have experienced a rise in awareness in a short period of time (i am assuming most of you, or at least some of you who aer interested in doing so, or you wouldnt have chosen this particular thread?), how did you overcome the inital depression?
Now that i feel i have opened my eyes, and realize that thigns that once made me feel fulfilled no long do so, i feel kind of lost and in limbo. I dont have any concrete plans for my futures, for my education, i dont know if i can related to my friends in the way i could before and social interaction seems lonely. i dont feel loved, and i dont feel that other people will understand if i try to talk to them. i assume that they will think i am just being crazy or intellectually pretentious.
right now i feel like i am going through motions. i laugh and joke with people as i've always done, i do my homework, but with no real motivation and usually end up with lowsy marks. the only thing i do to numb my thoughts is intense exercise. i find that if i excercise to the point of lactate threshold for as long as possible, then i can make myslef hypoglycemic and shut off some parts of my brain that are driving me crazy with their depressive thinking. also, the endorphins are good too....
right now i just dont find any joy or happiness, everyone's problems seem so trivial, and i have no interest or hopes for the future.. it's almost like therei s no point in living (however, i am not in any way suicidal, so dont worry). i just feel like im being a passenger right now, riding life, letting time pass without being involved in the actual navigation or driving. and i guess what i'm tying to ask is, for those of you who have become more aware, did you experience the same thing, that i am trying to describe and how did you overcome these feelings?
thanks.
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