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Originally Posted by DQueens  i always end up smoking now and then with friends and everytime i do, i regret it because it makes me feel disconnected, depressed and lonely. i felt this way in september one night when i got high. i felt that i could see my friends for waht they truely were, and my life for what it was, and i didnt like it. i thought i was just thinking crazy until the next day and following weeks where the feelings werent going away. life seemed so meaningless, i didnt know what i wanted from it anymroe, and i didnt like my life as it was. however, the feeling was not quite as strong nad persistant as when i was high. i feel that getting high raises your awareness at an even quicker pace than personal growth, that's what it felt like to me. it was like a rush of coming into realization about life, and the fact that it was such a large amount of realization and awareness in a short time is probably what depressed me. I think that i should get high again, to get some more answers about my state of awareness, but i'm scared because the last time was a pretty unpleasant experience for me. however, now i kind of know what i want in life and what truely matters to me. perhaps another burst of consciouness will benefit me? |
In mushroom culture, that is known as "breaking down the ego". A lot of conscious people indulge in them for that very reason, because the drug will put you face to face with yourself, and sometimes people don't like what they see. However, the downside is that you have to decide if what you saw and felt were true, so I believe you can get there yourself.
I am a big drug advocate, even though I don't do many drugs often. Someone who uses them in a responsible manner for learning can glan a lot from it, but if you use it to get ************ed up and go see Star Wars, you are using it wrong (I was guilty of that at one point). If you wan't an alternate perspective on things it can be a useful tool, but who want's an alternate perspective every single day?
Personally, I view junkfood and prescription drugs as being much more harmful than naturally occuring drugs.
As for the smoke from marijuana, you can combat that using a vaporizer, making it harmless in the carcinogenic sense.