Thank all of you for your advice! And thanks a lot for congratulations on my sobriety and the words of support - I really needed to hear them. Although now I consider myself non-drinker, the process of mantaining this state is still going. I mean that I'm so concerned about not getting back to addiction, that I still reinforce my decision daily - by marking "another sober day in a row" in a calendar. Maybe it will require a year or more - but "the time is going to pass anyway"
Now, back to our topic
I liked the most the definition of clarity as "the ultimate understanding". Now I know what I'm looking for- thanks again!
And I'd like to answer the question: "Why do you want to be enlightened?"
And to get some clarity
But I'll do it in separate post - so it can be easily moved to another thread if moderators consider it offtopic. (I think of the answer as of the long personal story I've always been wanting to tell, but no one asked so far...until now.)