This is a difficult situation. You can get through it, but it will take time and it will not be easy. Keep that in mind especially through the horrible times that will happen many times before things and you change.
One thing I would say that you need is to build confidence that you are capable, and that you control what happens to you. This will not happen by itself, any confidence that is not based on actual skills is an empty one and does little good, so the way would be to learn to deal with your surroundings successfully in small steps. As you become more fluent in this, real confidence will also come, and that will be a turning point.
How can you do that? It will be difficult by yourself, so try to open up to and spend time and do things with mature people you admire, these would generally be older, but you may know some who are exceptionally mature for their age, they would be good too. It would be particularly helpful if they see what you need and are willing to give you a little aid in getting there. Also, try to experience new things, and to undertake any challenges that you feel you can handle - both of these will help a lot.
When this happens, you will find that bullying, or bad relationships will disappear - you will find ways to deal with them, and at the high end - to never even create the conditions in which they can appear.
The past does not matter in any other way that you choose or allow it to matter. Some things can be difficult to get through, but once you learn not to allow the past to influence you, you will be a much stronger person. For the moment build your confidence, and at some point you will either feel ready to confront these issues or you will find that they matter no more.
Regarding the others - leave them alone and focus on yourself. That is what you need to develop to become happy.
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