Relate to it all. Thanks.
I have the urge to recover and recover and I'm honestly not doing much more than education and exploring from at home. If I follow inspiration I would now walk on the street without knowing where exactly I'm heading as I also feel often 'paralyzed' by excitement, sometimes so strong I even can't finish reading/writing a text without stopping and breathing. I'm happy and more loving than before, beliefs change more easily.
My heart goes out to people who struggle with their old ways, see what your guides can offer you on new perspectives and hints, often just changing the response will manifest better circumstances. If you are desperate I offer my help and connect, as I like doing it anyway.