Here's another thought.
Ask yourself why you are so attached to him and this relationship? Why is it so important to you at this time?
Can you let go, and trust that what will happen, will happen? Can you trust that the best thing will happen, and not be attached to what that is?
Can you take some time for yourself and do a meditation, imaging your life without this person? Can you allow yourself to open up to all possibilities?
My husband and I found our first year of marriage VERY tough. We went through some difficult issues and fights. The turning point came for me when I let go of the relationship. I literally handed it over to the Universe, stopped trying to control it and make it happen... and just trusted in the process.
We're still married, and we've come out the other side of those particular issues.
I know that those questions above are not easy to work through - I cried and cried and cried as I went through the process. but something changed within me when I just accepted where we were right then... and that change allowed me to respond in love rather than fear.
My heart goes out to you, no matter what happens, relationships are often are toughest teachers.
Find your centre, your strength, your power, your love.
Much joy,
KL
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