Obviously this has been a very painful thing for you Fawn (love that name).
I wouldn't revert to abuse or nasty retaliation tactics. I probably would suggest you see a councillor as you sound as though you're a suffering. A councillor if good, will help you deal with your fears as well as giving you some practical tools to handle yourself around people that intimidate you.
If you’re going to start university, or high school they usually have a counselling service available on campus. Perhaps that's something that might be accessible for you.
I hope things get better for you Fawn. I'm sure there are people on this forum that have words of wisdom
